One more thought on dream interpretation...
Alien invasion = Powerlessness
That is probably what I fear more than anything else, not having power over my own life. I don't think it's technically possible, so the fear would seem rather unfounded, but that's pretty much an Armageddon scenario for me, not being able to make my own choices. Where that point lies is beyond a vast gray area, but should I ever hit it, I think it's probably game over at that point. Not likely by my own hand, 'cause I'm a tenacious fighter even when the odds are stacked way the hell against me, but that just has to be the end because I can't imagine living without at least mental freedom.
I think the alien invasion dreams come to me when I'm feeling powerless in some way.
Power. It's a good word. I hate that I love it so much, but to be embarrassingly blatantly honest, I do love power. I find it more intoxicating than anything, save a deep, true bond in love. Sometimes I have to ask myself if I'm trying to sneak up on power, moving to acquire it while trying to convince myself that I don't want it. It's the worst temptation though, absolutely the worst.
It's probably my loathing and fear of being manipulated that helps keep me from trying to do the same to others, so in that much, I'm thankful to have that fear removing the temptation -- that whole "Do unto others..." thing.
A warning to any who would try to play me though: Don't bother. My brain works that way too, I just have enough restraint to keep it in check, but I can smell you coming from a world away and I'll know exactly what you're up to.
Ok, so another benefit of that fear is self protection.
All interesting thoughts, but I either need to get back to work now or let myself indulge in a little fantasy of being High Empress of The Universe. heh-heh.
