Depression sucks

[Much longer, gloomier parts deleted]

I'm pretty seriously depressed and have been for over a week now.  I know it's a matter of perspective, and I know my brain is off because of hormones, allergies, allergy meds, work stress, vacation stress, inherited bad brain chemistry, and a handful of other factors.

I wasn't even sure I wanted to mention it now that I can finally feel the clouds starting to lift a little, but I think it's really shitty to only share with people when you're feeling sunny-happy and everything is rainbows and chocolates, because that just makes people wonder what's wrong with them that they aren't always as happy.  And there it is.  No one is always happy.  I'm not even always happy when I sound like I'm happy.  Everybody has their down days.  These have been some of mine. 

I'm so ready to be done with this now.  Feeling this way makes even the simplest things in life feel so damn impossible.  I go hungry a lot when I'm depressed because even just trying to decide what to eat seems like too overwhelming a thing to deal with.  Today I need to go to the store and shop for food, but right now, even though I've been very hungry for about an hour now, I'm still procrastinating even making my own lunch because I just don't know what to eat.  I don't want to get up in the morning and face anything in the day, but I don't want to go to bed at night either and have to admit that I've officially wasted so much of the day.  It's so very stupid really.  Stupid brain tricks.