Cranky.

The doctor thing is irritating, but it's also something I can vent about without hurting anyone's feelings.  Pfft.  I'm trying so very hard these days to not spew venom.  Hold my tongue, hold my tongue, bite my tongue.  None of the stuff screaming in my head needs saying, it's just wasted words, and dangerous ones at that.  Nobody likes a negative person, and I don't even like myself when I get so anti-everything.  But dammit, it's been building in me for a few days now and I'm having to really fight not to let loose on someone, anyone.

It's probably PMS.  I can't tell this time.  I've never been terribly regular, and I'm not sure if my last period was really early, or it's late or I'm just skipping one or what... so I have very little idea where I am in my cycle right now, I just know that I'm off any sort of pattern again.  I'm usually regular for a half a year, maybe a year, and then I skip or am just really late or something *shrug* and then it's anyone's guess as to what's going on for a month or two before I settle back into anything close to a pattern.

All I know is I'm deeply offended and irritated about everything these days.  Everything.  ARGH!  I don't want to talk to anyone.  I don't want to watch the news.  I don't want to even read my friend's blogs for fear of something sparking just enough to ignite the powder keg that is me.

I have work to do.  Best just shut off/out everything non-essential and try to keep my thoughts on work.  A vow of silence sure does sound blissful right now, ...'cept I want everyone else to take it too, because I just don't want to hear anyone yammering on about anything these days.  I mean, is it just me or has the whole world become really whiny and stupidly needy these days?  argh.  See?  I'd better just stop there.  Super-cranky.